Looking back...

Now that the holidays are over I've had time to go through my camera and my notes from the last couple of months. I came across something that I wrote while Addison was in the hospital...

written November 15th, 2008

"I'm sitting here in the hospital room staring at Addison, my baby, lying in the bed and I'm listening to Trace Atkins song "You're Gonna Miss This" and while I know that I'm not going to miss this agonizing time in the hospital I am wondering where DID the time go? And did I relish the time enough with her when she was inside me and a baby and then a toddler? Now she's in pre-school and two short years from now she'll be in Kindgergarten!

The past few days have been an eye-opening experience for me. I've been so blessed in my life and Brian and I have been riding a wave of good news lately--and then God does something to remind you how precious life is--that you need to celebrate every day and never take for granted your blessings. This Thanksgiving I'm going to have the biggest thanks ever. Thank you for healing my baby--my life! I'm still in shock that we are at Children's Hospital. That Addison's life was in jeopardy.

I'm so grateful to have a job that's optional if I work or not (substitute teaching). I'm being reminded right now that my number one job is to be a mother. This week Addi needed me more than ever. She went back to being in diapers and needed me to change them, she couldn't eat, she couldn't even roll over or sit up let alone walk on her own. I liked being there for her. And Brian amazed me. He was truly super dad! We both stayed at the hospital day in and day out since Sunday and he never let anything get to him. He's been my rock and Addi's healing hands. "

Oh how things have changed since then...less than two short months ago. Addison went in for her checkup and they cleared her of all illness. We did have a great Thanksgiving and December was great because Addison didn't even have so much as a cold! Just two days short of starting a new year it was good to look back on what I wrote and use that as somewhat of a New Year's Resolution. My one and only resolution for 2009 is to strive to be the best mother and wife I possibly can. Nothing else really matters. Brian and I have no idea where 2009 is going to take us...literally...we still haven't decided where we are going to move! Haha. But, one thing I do know is that I'm going to put family first. So, wherever we are living or whatever direction my career takes us in we'll be a solid, healthy family :)